It is not an amazing thing to hear someone won in a competition, once or many times.  According to many competitions that held by universities, institutions, or government right now, it means a lot of people will have many chances to take the position as a winner. Even though there is one people who monopolize to win all competition in some subject, but I am sure the opportunity to win for any other people still open largely. So why sometimes we still cannot win in a competition?

The question now is about how strong the desire of us to achieve it?

As a dream achiever, I admit myself to never stop chasing the position as a winner in varsity competitions. We do not talk about how people will claim me as a limitless ambitious person, I just claim it as a color of my life. I just want to proclaim that I have failed many times more than how much I can conquer the competition and become a winner. The point is about how I tried many competitions for just getting the winner position. I am sure that I will never become a winner if the competition event in Indonesia is not much like now. For each competition that I passed as a loser  will be a great lesson for me to achieve more in the next occasion.

It happens really that I can win in a paper competition after I lose in 4 competitions in advance. It also happens to my accounting Olympiad how I can get my first trophy with my team after we had failed in our 3 competitions gradually. I plant it to my memory deeply how I will never become a winner if I stop joining competitions in my 2nd paper competition. It takes a long time after I can be a winner in my 4th semester although I start my competition in my 2nd semester. Did I ever feel give up for that? Of course!

2016 will be the most fail year for having high spirit in posting an article around the year
It's so embarrassing when 2016 became the year for me to get high position in research department nevertheless I have less spirit for writing and being so critical

So sorry 2016, I lost my control to achieve all ambition that I've made in the beginning year. I was pathetic, desperate, lazy, and another worst thing. So bad. I'm shy for all I do in 2016 if I remember them.

I prefer sleeping to reading a book
I prefer playing with my smartphone to studying
It's the basic failure of my life during 2016 which makes me lost productivity. I just catch a thing that's not very important, i.e. Satisfying myself for getting wholeheartedly happiness
Even I feel so worst to face the year, I want to praise for everything that I got on 2016. It's caused that I've achieved my maturity enough for pursuing my ambition.
I don't know why behind my failure for managing time, I have great occasion for still being achieve every dream I've written on the wall of my room. Look at this

1. Got perfect GPA again in the odd semester
2. Got my first champion in scientific paper competition
3. Chosen as a Universitas Brawijaya official Delegates of Accounting Olympiad
4. Chosen as an Assistant Lecturer
5. Have an occasion for presenting my paper in the International Conference
6. Chosen as an official delegates from Universitas Brawijaya for joining Forum Bidikmisi Nasional in Hari Kebangkitan Teknologi Nasional scoring from my accumulative achievement

Yaa actually all of them are academic achievement only for satisfying my ambition, no more. You will think that I'm so pride for those but I just show how I'm praised to be blessed by Allah. Allah emerges His gift as what I want since past time. Maybe it's my false not to write a dream for being so worthwhile for human entire me. It's literally my false for taking me into a selfish student who just catch her ambition.

Hello 2017!
I have a wish for you. 
Don't make me repeat my false in previous year.
Don't let me do bad thing in wasting my time just for steady action only for making me happy without any productivity.
Don't let me being so selfish just to catch my owb ambision
Make me able to be worthwhile for human entire me
Make me still able to catch my own dream for winning competition, getting scholarship, getting good job prospect just for make my parents, my big family and my university pride to have ne
Make me able to balance the idea of give and get
Make me more productive each day in 365 day
Ease me to learn Japanese, Finishing my mini thesis till 3.5 grade of my class, get high score of English test, hmm every stuff to catch my next dream
Ease me and him for uniting our relation :)

Be steady. Be so happy.
Sorry for failure on 2016
I'm ready to success, 2017

The best dreamer and achiever,
S.

 This truck is different with truck which we usually know. This truck is not a type of vehicle which is able to load tons of luggage, crop, etc. This truck is a toy which has big impact to some level of hierarchy in society. This truck is miniature truck in big size.

Truck Festival in Ganjaran, Gondanglegi, kab. Malang

Living in Ganjaran Village is a blessing for me because it leads me to side with unique society who leaves in Java but speaking in Madura. This village consists of half-blood descent between Java and Madura, and it’s caused the location quietly remote from another area so it makes its own unique characteristic among all. This village could be called as ‘Kota Santri’ because teen of Islamic boarding exists in this village which Madura’s migration in Kalimantan always takes his/her child to Islamic boarding in Ganjaran Village. While we know how faithful society here, we also must perceive that not all people has same faithful. Surely Ganjaran has the reverse.

Recent month, there is new habit from Ganjaran society to buy big size miniature truck. The truck is just a toy so it doesn’t load luggage as usual but it brings big sound speaker in its container. The sound speaker will be turned on and sing a song in high volume so their neighbor will be heard the song as well. It will do every time and there’s community of every people who has the miniature. For your information, people cannot easily buy the miniature as buying usual toy because the price is quiet expensive, cheapest truck costs Rp 800.000 until Rp 8.000.000 or more, depends on size, form, color, etc. Of course not all people can buy it if he/she doesn’t have excess money to set aside and buy the truck.

The effort has been allocated by people in United Nation Conference in Stockholm on 1972 which discussing about the emerging of human consciousness toward the severe condition of earth. The conference told about how urgent to control people desire and move to another paradigm to take environment as a priority in doing activity. The highlight point that’s confronted is about economic activity which sacrifices the value of saving environment under the reason of raising high profit for people happiness. It’s real that there’s trade-off between economic growth and keeping environment in their nature.

1. I want to stop my addict to hold and check smartphone anytime.
   I’m sure smartphone has been declining my productivity to do anything because I will never focus to do my job while feeling afraid to leave update information from social media. Moreover, the information which I leave is not about political or international issues but I check all groups in my Line account and wait status updating from my friend. SOOO STUPID, SINTIA!!!!!Yes, because I have perceived about that, I need to habituate my self not to be addicted, I have to improve my intention for doing activity in focus
2. Read a lot meaningful book outside reference literature in classTo be honest, my plan is still same with last year because I got trouble to reach it. I only got a chance to read another my college book is in holiday. Not too much because I sleep more than reading. I got much problem when I discuss or make a scientific paper, yaa because I lack reading another field of knowledge. Bismillah this could be a lesson for betterment on 2016
3. Writing MUCHNew consciousness comes to me after I know that I got less productivity.  I got nothing for my history record. I don’t have much any output which gives beneficial for humankind. I don’t remember again what critical thinking that I made for betterment of life. All those happen because I LESS WRITING, writing on my blog, writing on scientific paper, etc. Especially writing on blog, both! BOTH! BOTH! Really I feel enjoy to write in English than Indonesia :(((
   The main thing: I also have to write much in many conferences and writing competition :)
4.  Be the best student in universityThis means to encourage me for better learning process in class. I must read college literature much, not to be easily thinking that the subject is deniable. Join class well, keep active, but not to ambitious haha. I need to do GOOD PROCESS hmm…
5. Win in CompetitionReminder for you: I’M SPECIALIST FINALIST around 2015. I joined 4 paper competitions and I got finalist predicate for them :( Heyy I want to get my past glory to win (which glory? haha *forgetit). I don’t know  what’s the urgency to be a winner while I cannot give beneficial  for humankind. However being a winner is my parent’s hope, as a form of my process. Hmm doing better for every competition, it must :)
6. Go InternationalI also want to go abroad to join scientific forum, representing Indonesia. Go there by free especially. It’s time for me to go to another country and see what happens there. Aaaah I want it. Please. I will do my best to reach it. Wish me luck for it.
7.  Being a Lecturer Assistant and Olympiad DelegateHmm it comes the year for me to apply lecturer assistant and Olympiad delegates. It makes my blood trembling every semester to keep my score in perfect. (FYI, my Financial Accounting score almost get me die due to its complicated). Oh I don’t know what will happen next. I deal to have big effort for them :”)))
8.  Be a better MuslimahHmm it will be hard to keep istiqomah in doing ritual such as Puasa Senin-Kamis and doing much sholat sunnah. However being a better in worshipping Allah is an ultimate goal of the year
9.  Stay Calm with HimHaha it’s crazy plan but it’s true considering our circumstance which impose us to be separated in distance. Only in distance, not and may not separate for our heart hahaha. Yes, I’m sure that I have to be calm and control my emotion in driving our relation. I must separate the time with him and on focus to my job (and tolerate to his business).  I don’t know, what kinda plan I made in this point wkwk