My Life Shake: University Entrance
World has changed in this recently month. I
lost from the circulation tentatively and now I come and try to tell you what
happened. I am so sorry to leave you, blogger!
May Post:
After I cried because my score for national
examination was out of my prediction, I thought that disaster had been end. I
used to believe that one failure would be changed by another success. I made
myself patient to accept my score and wait unpatiently for the announcement
from Kementerian Pendidikan dan Kebudayaan about Seleksi Nasional Masuk
Perguruan Tinggi Negeri (SNMPTN). I had big belief that I would be accepted
whether it was in Universitas Brawijaya or Universitas Negeri Malang
importantly it is Accountancy program.
But earth shake,
“Anda dinyatakan tidak LULUS seleksi SNMPTN”
Yes, SNMPTN is the only way to be accepted in
PTN. At least, it is what I had cultivated in my mind. So I took my effort
during SMA to conquer that selection. Did everything I could be. But the result
was out predictable more than out from my prediction for score in Ujian
Nasional.
Both my parents was not believe what I had
experienced even though I checked many times on website and it was same, YOU ARE NOT ACCEPTED. Yayaya
my parents did not believe, considering that I always get highest rank paralel
without any decreasing in my score report ,I never forget to join external
achievement whether I would be the winner or not. They know how is my effort to
conquer SNMPTN in my last SMA by those following effort.
I cried every times as though I had had not
any way after my failure. I close myself from many things. I deactivate my
account in social media and severely I did not activate my handphone. But at
last, I perceive why I was not accepted. I WAS ARROGANT!
Yes, I was nothing. Who is me? A little
student from remote school who has big dreams to be the best among another
thousand students around Indonesia. What it could be. I was despondent till my
weight decreased rapidly.
I hate May. So much.
June Post:
I went to my uncle’s course to study about
SBMPTN (my next way). I had big effort to have good university importantly in
Accountancy program. Even though I always remeber that my teacher had forbiden
me to put that prestigious program because she believed that I cannot get it
under the reason my senior had never been in accountancy program around
Indonesia. Yes, she was right initially that it’s inline with my failure in
SNMPTN that I was not accepted in accountancy program.
But I insist to be there whatever the
condition. I studied hard, left my house to get the course. Yes I study SBMPTN
also with depression. Depress with the fact whom I experienced and also depress
with the hyper difficulty SBMPTN whom I never plan to face the test so far.
On the
other hand, I got new door. My dream since I was child to be a student of
Sekolah Tinggi Akuntansi Negara (STAN) will be near, I registered there. I
shocked why STAN open the registration for D1 and D3 exact with my failure in
SNMPTN. Considering usually STAN had unclear infomation in accepting student. I
did not know it. Whether it is fate to me or not. But I hope to be yes. Aamiin.
I ran to many other world. I met many friends
in many courses I had joined. But the worst thing came because actually this
june 2014 I must have sweet seventeenth party happily. Those are failed because
I must in my course with my new friends. Yeah it was bad. So bad!
Inside I register myself in SBMPTN and USM
STAN, I was asked by my senior in
Universitas Negeri Malang (UM) to join Jalur Prestasi.Jalur Prestasi UM is
mentioned for students around Indonesia who has achievement minimally get first
rank in province competition level. Alhamdulillah I had it from economic,
accountancy and debate competition. I
tried it, register by online, brought many ceritificates to be verified and
interview. I also asked my friends who got many achievements but did not have
chance to be accepted in SNMPTN to join this way, with me.
And Alhamdulillah I was accepted. I was happy
to have one university to be placed Another my friends who joined this test was
not accepted. In last I knew that Jalur Prestasi UM only accept few students,
only me who accepted in Pendidikan Akuntansi program. God, I was praised to get
campus before SBMPTN and USM STAN are announced.
Cheers,
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